Something I wrote elsewhere

Me:
Okay. I'm going to ask this question because, well, ... why not. It's a good one:

If y'all are so over your anger or working through it and well on the way to being "forgiving" people, (whatever that means), then how come y'all are still stuffing your faces with food gauranteed to wreck your bodies? Where, exactly, does that impulse to self-destruction come from, hmm?

Mark Twain: Denial ain't just a river in Egypt.

past your anger, my sweet patootie.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm taking myself and my anger out for a walk in that lovely, half-wild park nearby. While we still have it.


And I'm not going to delete this one, though the owner of the blog did not like it, to say the least.

Dear LaQuinn:

Such hostility in your post. You've hurt people with it, really unsheathed your dagger & plunged.

This blog is a safe place to write about anything & get responses or not, but to know someone breathed in your words & your day's feelings.

It's a blog where many women have stopped stuffing their faces, or WANT to.

Few of us have claimed to have forgiven everyone we've been hurt by. Most of us are actively trying to do so, are actively trying to heal ourselves, & to do so without food, or WITH food & a hope that it won't always be by eating.

Forgiveness, healing -- they take practice. Like an actress with a role in another language. She starts mouthing the words &, over time, the words become hers.

Then, too, if you read closely, we are specific about what in ourselves has healed & whom we've forgiven. I bruise easily -- any bump will do. Some of my bruises have faded, some are great purple spots, some are purple AND sore, some have healed.

Your question puts us all at risk by its vituperativeness. It diminishes our freedom of speech. & yet I & others have read it, thought about it, & wish you well on your semi-wilderness walk.

fmk

Am I wrong to be tired of all this? Yeah, I know the question was much more bluntly worded than anything those women would ever think to say to themselves, but ...

Is there no value at all in keeping it real? Hasn't anyone figured out yet that bandaids won't do when surgery is required? That actress is only ever acting that role. The words are those of the playwright's, not hers.

Betcha the blog's author and a number of the other posters go on some binges this weekend, the blame for which they lay at my doorstep. Can't possibly be anything to do with them! It never is.

And that bit about diminishing their freedom of speech! Dear God. She really doesn't know from restrictions on freedom of speech, if she thinks my post was an example of such.

Note to self: Keep your distance from addicts, fer pete's sake! You know how they are!